It’s already July! It is the time of the year that I start seriously packing miles. I wish I could stay in half marathon shape and just casually run one whenever a race catches my fancy but this is how it’s going to be. This year, I resolved to let go and not be too harsh on myself. In the process I learned a few things. I’m eager to see how everyone else is faring. Please share your half yearly updates. 1) I forgot my own gyaan and had to rediscover it. I have to let go of things I have no control over. I have to focus on what I can do and work around that. Getting a run in most days is important but stressing about the perfect running conditions isn’t. 2) Some yoga is better than the perfect hour of yoga. Without it, I don’t think I could be effective in my daily life. I’m eternally grateful to you tubers who have kept me going long after I stopped going to hot yoga class. 3) Keeping an open mind is so important. I never thought I had the patience to meditate. A yoga guru’s guided video got me started. It’s good to start my day lighting the lamp and trying to freshen up with just breathing and being present. I’ve not been able to get to an empty mind or to be the observer but I am able to start the day fresh. I still don’t like the guided videos. I tried a lot of them. Every video feels distracting. I stopped using the videos and am just focusing on my own breathing. 4) Beating myself over a health condition that I had no control over is just bad for me. I’ve got to start again and got to lose more weight than I ever thought I’d possibly gain but today things seem to be in control. I just hope I’m in better shape before seeing my mom again. Her worries for me makes me work on myself. 5) Instead of brushing aside my privilege, I’m going to be grateful for it. I’m thankful that I have the time during the day to get a workout in. I don’t have to worry about work. I have only to focus on myself and my family and it’s ok to not cram my day with things to do. It’s good to have free time. It’s good to read a lot again. It’s good to talk to friends on the phone and see a friend a week. It’s also good to sit in silence and look out the window sometime. The beautiful yard that I spend time and energy over is an awesome space to look out to actually! So glad to finally allow myself to indulge in the luxury of free time. It’s helped my health tremendously. I have the energy to workout because I’m not running from pillar to post everyday. 6) It’s so nice to just let DH do whatever with DS without worrying over perfection and ensuring it’s done my way. Just leaving early in the morning without worrying about the million dabbas I have to pack for DS and letting dh do it has been a boon. I would always micro manage the dabba packing because it has to be just so for my son. He seems to enjoy whatever his Dad makes for him and it’s a pleasure to let go and take the time for myself. 7) I’ve stopped trying to worry about tomorrow. Whatever happens today is my focus. I do plan and sometimes things don’t go as planned and that’s ok. 8) A home workout video works as well as something in the gym. A late evening session packs as much as punch as a morning workout. All is not lost if something doesn’t happen at the time I want it to. I can squeeze in a yoga video end of the day and feel soooo good!