I was triggered by horrible footage of a baby being tortured. According to the article the video was posted on FB and moderators refused to take it down because it was considered "baby yoga". Baby was crying and then eerily stopped. (If it wasn't for the need to see what is happening in my building I would have deleted FB long ago. It's a piece of sh1t.) Video was likely in Malaysia. Don't know if it was baby sitter --- definitely worst than the devil. Lot of thoughts came in my mind - who does this? - is this post-partum depression - is post-partum depression real (one Aunty says that it is a phony illness) Then I remembered reading in an Indian newspaper that a woman who tried to have baby for 7 years was finally successful - only to suffer post-partum depression and shake her baby to death. WTF? I am no longer angry, just feel like crying. I remember thinking there is no greater love than taking care of a baby. More than all the wealth in the world. Better than having a husband quite frankly (after seeing this video I felt love for that baby and I didn't want anyone or anything else). Of course I never had the experience of taking care of a baby (I miscarried at 3 months due to emotional and physical abuse). Take your time to digest this and reply.