Well This is just to summarise my chain of thoughts. I was skiing this sunday and met with an accident. Doctor says I am bedridden for 2 months. I could not believe God sent so many strong signals for me to evade this and I still didnt care for those signals. Anyway what has to happen, happens anyway. Now my mind is thinking more on bigger picture of it. We learn so less from luxury and pleasure , while with pain we learn so much so fast. I had faced this "being on crutches" thing before too. Almost 9 years back I was in road accident and my same leg was injured badly. So I know how it feels to be handicapped for sudden period. How it feels to suddenly be out of running crowd. But this time my mind is more mature and more worldly. That time as girl with hi-flying career and tons of friends , All I could think was me , me and me.. Now with 10 years added to that youth, and after being married for 3 years. I see this in different light altogether. First Thought which hit my mind, was I had realised "less privileged" people's pain before too. But I havent done my bit in 10 years time. Despite of being well-off and well-earning I never found time to invest in what meant a lot to me. I have often realised that big learning in my life came through biggest pains i hv faced. One "Near-death" experience was enough to open my eyes to see, This ego, jealousy, shallowness and meanness this is all created in this world. When we will go, Nothing will go with us. It will just be us and goodness people saw in our eyes. For those few milliseconds I saw several hundred people I have met in my life and I was wondering what they were thinking of me at that moment. So I decided to be Good No matter what. No matter who said what to me.. If I dont hv to get angry I will not.. That did get so much flake at times.. bonk But it worked in long run. Anyway coming back to the topic in hand, So after two days of "being on crutches", "Struggling hard to go to restroom", All I could recollect is all the remote and stranger faces I have seen in India, Partially or fully handicapped, struggling to make a living, struggling to board that "full" bus, Struggling to some how keep their self-respect and make life possible for them. I had promised myself to do something about them. I mayno be Bill gates to open a foundation and do at bigger level. But I can definitely do my part in whatever 3-4 handicapped people I have seen. I just feel we had more respect and avenues for "Physically disabled" People In india. Here its so much heaven fo rsuch people. With I will like to recollect and pen down this little old memory of mine. I used to work in delhi , and on weekend I used to go to visit my parents in nearby place. It was 2 hours journey from Bus, So every friday evening I will go home and every monday morning I will be riding back to Delhi. So the route was I will catch one Roadways bus to half way till my office bus stop. And Then catch my office bus and go to office. This Gentleman was physically disabled on one of the knee and he always used crutches. While I used to wait for my office bus, He would struggle his way to crowded buses. He would be disciplined and on time always. Well-dressed, educated person he looked like. One day some pushed this guy from bus, Becuase so many people were there. He had fallen really bad, His office bag all scattered and his dress dishevelled. People standing there was either watching quietly or smiling sheepishly. No One helped the guy. When I stepped ahead to help him and reassemble his office bag. He was little taken aback. Then he said, Madam, You dont worry. It s my daily life I will manage. I helped him get up and then waited foor my bus. However , That was our brief talk for 2-3 years watching him every week struggling with those buses. Now last two days, His image has crossed my mind atleast ten times. When Yesterday when I sat in pooja, I promised God , I will do my bit in helping such people. I know It must be heavy to read for anyone. But then what life is it, to keep earning and keep saving and keep spending and without doing anythign to make this world little better place.