Dear Huma & Pushpavalli, I also used to think if GOD really exists and why he is good to some people and bad to some people. I was bit cleared after reading Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. Great souls like Buddha, Chaitanya, Sri Ramakrishna, Swami Vivekananda...have experienced that Bliss and have spoke about their experiences. It is good to have discrimation...which leads to God. I would like to share few words of Sri Ramakrishna...recorded in His Gospel Sri Ramakrisha says:"Why should the universe be unreal? That is a speculation of the philosophers. After realizing God, one sees that it is God Himself who has become the universe and all living beings. Divine Mother is the Universal Consciousness "The Divine Mother revealed to me in the Kali temple that it was She who had become everything. She showed me that everything was full of Consciousness. The Image was Consciousness, the altar was Consciousness, the water-vessels were Consciousness, the door-sill was Consciousness, the marble floor was Consciousness-all was Consciousness. "I found everything inside the room soaked, as it were, in Bliss-the Bliss of Satchidananda. I saw a wicked man in front of the Kali temple; but in him also I saw the Power of the Divine Mother vibrating. God is not only inside us, He is both inside and outside. The Divine Mother showed me in the kali temple that everything is chinmaya, the Embodiment of split, that it is She who has become all this, the image, myself, the utensils of worship, the door sill …everything is indeed Chinmaya.The aim of prayer, of spiritual discipline, of chanting the name and glories of God is to realize just that. For that alone a devotee loves God.