to start with my DH use to and is still cheating on me , he says he never but I have see his nude pics ,erotic , erect ,climaxed pics sent to other women , there erotic chats , close pics with almost every other women he meets , he wants them to call him Bava , I was tired of asking him about all these coz I use to get a response that they r just friends and nothing more , just for timepass. Once I caught him kissing a gal in my house when I was in the house , when I asked him he said I was imagining and he was actually not kissing her but showing her something on the tp. I am tired of asking him to be faithful , love only me , care for me. The thing is he does care for me but he also cares for his other gals which hurts me a lot , he doesn't tell me where is goes , when he would come , he just keeps me waiting , I beats me badly when questioned , to cut long story short , I got fedup , I cant leave him coz I have kids and worried about there future , what society would think. So , I started diverting my mind did various things to keep myself occupied but sometimes things went out of hand, fights use to be common , once came across this guy , he is good & married We use to spend very less time together yet I use to feel good. We got along well and fell in love, my DH came to know about this he felt bad but again didn't understand why I fell for him. He abused me when things went out of hand I called my parents and unfortunately my DH started beating me infront of them , parents couldn't bare all these and got me out of house , DH came back and begged me cried and wanted me back. I am in a dilemma , I love DH ,I love this other guy too but not as much as DH , this other guys wife knows about us and she surprisingly is fine with all these. this other guy has stopped talking to me , we are not in talking terms but whenever we come across each other there is this sad feeling. I know it is wrong to have an extramaritial relationship I never wanted to be in that kind of relation but my bad I ended up in one of them, that relation is over now but that sad feeling is making me cry.