Hello everyone, I am married since many years.I am in mid thirties.my married life was full of ups and downs.My husband is a short tempered person. Initially it does not bother me much because he was super nice with me too.once he said hurting words to me then next moment he tries to be nice with me without even saying sorry. he helped me a lot in my career growth, he had great relationship with my parents and helpful in household too.So I did not bother much about his negative side of personality. Now let's come to the point, Due to some medical problems in both of us.I am not able to concieve. Now he blame me for everything that I have medical problems thats why we dont have baby...and I should go for tests.he does not recognize that he has problems too.our family doctor reports say soo.My gynaecologist wrote a lot of tests for pregnancy.for one of those test I have to book the appointment in hospital.ladies I am working woman .my job is full time and sometime very stressful.i was not getting appointment in hospital sometime due to work or some time they were not able to give me an appointment due to full booking.for this my husband never understand he continually blame me that I am not trying hard to do that. When I we not doing job he was always upset that I don't want to do job that is why I am not looking job....instead of the fact I try hard everyday.Now I have job he want kid and blame me if I fail to fulfil his expectations. ladies, I went for that test in hospital to check fillopian tubes.i felt severe pain in my part.doctor recommend me to go for other test to check the reason of severe pain in my part. So doctor did not complete it.due to this my husband was very upset that why I cry during test that doctor was not able to do the test.he was not worried about the problem happen but worried about pregnancy. now I was talking to my family doctor .he ask me for atleast five times to call back to ask questions to doctor why he is not giving me immediately appointment.why he did not follow up after sending me the prescription...bla bla...i was frustrated.when I said him that you are more worried about pregnancy rather than my health.he start throwing the things arrond and hitting himself...shouting..yelling.....and saying that i am not even listening to him about what he is saying .he gave me 1 and half hour lecture before throwing things just about calling the doctor again and again untill he agree with me for early appointment.He start hitting himself ....he slapped himself and then hold my both hands then start slapping himself with my hands...saying I am trying to kill him.I made him bad person and what not. He does this type of behavior before this like 2 months ago.when I ask him to check for himself after long conversation.he start throwing things and hitting himself.....and bad mouthing me...blame me and keep yelling like a mad. I am soo much frustrated with him.Even before saying as any normal thing I have to think twice.he get mad on very small issues. Last month I said I will leave him if he did not change ...he got mad and ask me to write it down that I am divorcing him at this date.after the fight finish he says he just want to show the psychologists that my wife has mental issues. Ladies I am soo much frustrated with his behaviour,feels depressed because I can't share my feelings with him for the fear of upsetting him. I have bad relationship with inlaws.my parents does not support me . I know divorce is not a easy and I saw lots of women who regret after divorce...I don't want to be one of them..I want to try hard for this marriage to work.Please give me your valuable suggestions. Thanks in advance.