thanks ma for your suggestions. I will never give up on my family. It's just my view and how I feel about it. And I feel so dejected because of the way things has happened. I am in contact with them and still and will ask extent my hand whenever they need me. it's just that I accept that they are broad minded and supportive but certain things are beyond my imagination. My dh is indeed a best thing that has happened in my life. His love is what keeping me running. He makes me talk with my family on continuous basis too. As you said I am trying to be stress free as I am ttc and at times I vent things out as this. I am following the threads you have mentioned. And making new life, i am making one from my 9 years of age as I understood this way of life and I must move on along with it. This new life with pets and dh is really best part. Hope i get good news too. Thank you for reading this lengthy post and giving suggestions with kind words