I dont know how long I am going to live and after death how I will be. I am not going to write any will as my chidren say they want only my presence and not the money, otherwise also if a will is written it will be written by my husband but he also says children know everything they will take care. He already does not have any wishes wants to do social work and that is his wish always. I am getting so much addicted to IL here, this has become my second home and everyday come running here after finishing here to chat with my friends and share my experiences and bore everyone. When my father was laid with cancer , on his last day my grandmother knew that he will leave the world anytime on that particular day, so she told of us to be strong and can hear the news of his death during the day. Same way I feel I should also know before I die so that I can take leave from everyone here before leaving this wonderful world and this wonderful site and go happily saying good bye to all my dear and near ones. Otherwise also I have told my daughter to post here about me after I go. My wish is also that my husband should go first when his time comes,because I know without me he will be lost though my children will take good care of him. He should live another 10 years or more than that and we should celebrate his 80th Birthday with the grandchildren Sorry friends you all will say that why write about this when you are going to live long but still you all know I cant keep anything in my heart if I let it out only I feel relieved. I might live for more years. Nothing is in ourhands . All His will.