We were stranded in india ever since covid started and came back about 2 months ago. Life was hard there and my kids suffered a lot. My older one.. Stuck at IL home, our fights she suffered.. fighting infront of her and everyone. We came back. Things just got worse. He is busy all the time and does not do much for kids. I make breakfast, feed them, engage them, take them out on/off, take my office calls along with them screaming, feed younger one, cook lunch, again feed, again evening snack /milk/ then , sometimes teach older one, take them out, and shower. He makes morning tea and does his yoga etc. After his work stops, he watches phone and plays piano..and sits on dining table, watches phone, night time cleans up dishes etc and screams and watches phone. Evening - does he play with kids.. sometimes, but while watching phone. Does he take them out? no? if i insist, force a lot, he will go out sit next to them while watching phone. Where is he.. At night, he will keep cleaning house till 12. Which he does not need to. When do i work? I do not? I stay up late to finish my work after my younfer one sleeps. My older one sleeps with him. She gets so tired. She keeps calling him to come upstairs. But he mostly screams at her about cleaning etc and poor girl gets scared and come upstairs to her room. And most of times, she will get phone from him, so he does not have to deal or talk with her. She won't come to me to sleep and stays up till 12. Does he take them to park or near garage or in yard. Not at all. Always inside. Me and him have left no love and its almost converted to hatred now and just living together. I am thinking 5 more years, till my younger one is atleast 5 so i can think what to do. I hate him to the core that i think bad about him. Every other day there will be fights in the house about cleaning. He thinks i do not keep the house clean and always uses bad words like house is dump, potty house or pee house which really irritates me. On dinner table i ask him not to watch, kid is learning to break the rules, no. Whenver we sit at table ,we fight. Table is dirty, there is potty everywhere. I do his laundry every week and fold everyone's clothes except his but put in his closet. He has not done laundary in 5 yrs. Toilets/bathrooms - not in last 10 yrss. Brush/Cook/feed/put them to bed, like hamster on wheel. Also meanwhile picking toys from floor or clothes. But with kids and everyone in house, it is impossible to have it perfectly clean. and poor kids where do they go.Some level clean i understand. But he is untalkable. He is one of those guys who sees world around him is so kind, hard working and nice. World in house are mean, do not do anything. Funny thing - We stayed in India for 4-5 months. Each single day I did up/down bringing him morning tea/kids milk, and then again breakfast. While my older SIL living there, did not cook breakfast. My MIL for her H only. Each single day. And day/night my office work and meeting at odd hours, keeping track of LO feed etc. No appreciation. Infact, if i ask to take care of him, because i have to cook bkfast for him/kids before work, which will interfere with something that his parents asked him to do, (which anyone else could have done), he will create hell and cry. His SIL - oh she is so hard working... look at you. She always feed her H. She always take care of him even when he does not do anything, he gets food, not matter what. I told him there are things i can do she cant but then stopped..why to compare ..man. She is housewife doing same thing for 20 yrs. I have strengths she does not. My H likes and worships her. Ok good... Just like SIL's husband, my BIL - you are bad H. Losing temper at nothing. We never sit together to do something together. Only was probably breakfast on weekends that also he is watching or cursing us for unclean house, table. I am not sure what to do. I just can not live like that. and he just got worse with india trip I am really considering counselling at this time, but he will not attend. so filled with ego..