I should be happy right?How much of emotional blackmails and stress throughout the years?I was so scared they will come and settle with me..but now they are moving to a retirement home in Bangalore.They are very adamant and though husband try to talk them out of it..they are hellbent and finally we had to give in. Why do I feel sad?I felt my heartbeat skip and feeling low.. Suddenly..feeling like a very horrible person.I wish things were better and we could have been together. I am trying to convince myself and want to to stop them but I won’t lie..am scared.What if things once again go sour? In-laws told us that they don’t want to be a burden and it is tough for them to settle in America.They prefer to be amongst people their age and have some happiness in their old age. I am feeling like the most horrible human. I wish I was also nicer to them.Past one year,I have limited my talks with them coz it will create unnecessary problems.Wish I have not behaved that way.. they are old.In their seventies.Why didn’t I think of that?Their life span is not too long..why couldn’t I have been nicer to them? I feel like crap today especially when they said that they miss their son etc..I never wanted to come between the son and parents..they would have been possessive coz of insecurities,angry coz of that but I could have been more understanding. One thing is that my husband before telling me this news told me “You are going to feel sad for what am about to tell you”...I felt shocked coz I thought hubby will be upset and tell me if am happy now but he felt I will also be sad which I am which shows how much he understood me...Wow.. I wish things were different.I never even thought they will be so adamant to move to a retirement home. My mil who is super possessive of her son and extremely insecure is totally fine to be away in her old age?without her son?I am not so bad...I won’t tell her this..probably never but am very very sorry from the bottom of my heart for all the hurt I caused her when arguing.Am so sorry. Just want to share and journal my thoughts with my IL friends..