I Miss Myself ...

I was going through my old pics maybe even 5 years back..my face still had retained lot of
Innocence and eyes had so much hope.I fely i looked nice.Over the last few years I came brutally face to face with realities I failed to acknowledge.this year the stark reality.Be it family or Some people around me.

My recent photos I see a stern face with lack luster eyes but a lot more maturity.I looked at myself in the mirror deeply and there is zero innocence in my face.Eyes had no spark.Just dead.

Usually many lose their innocence few years after teenage but I have always felt young and vibrant.I was thinking I was lucky but it was probably immaturity of my mind.


The scars are still there,pain caused by people whom I very strongly believed to be my support system.

My mistake was I took years to Accept that they are the ones who were wrong but I kept blaming myself for not being good enough.

Ignorance is bliss they say.Maybe..

I wish I never accepted the truth and probably believed that strong belief that this world is always like a rainbow with lot of colors.

Reality dawned.Innocence is lost.

I feel more peaceful but I miss the Old me..

Strong feelings today.Maybe a part of self healing.This has been an emotionally tough year.

Just wanted to vent these thoughts.

 

Thank you NOW

 

I am still Human. Everyone has their days.Today is just one of them

Happy holidays!

 

Thank You

 

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