We all have heard about this quote: “God helps those who help themselves.” You have to implement this in your life. You have to look for strength and happiness within yourself. Stop looking towards your husband, inlaws & your own parents. Develop the strength within yourself. I have been in your shoes. Mentally depressed & down, after 20 years of being married, I stopped looking for favors, zero expectations from my husband, my inlaws & to some extent my own family, I started meditating & looking for strength within. Now, everyone is same but things have changed for the better. I DONT work hence I dont earn but I have stopped giving anyone right to insult me. I have stopped looking at my husband for respect & honor. I make myself happy & dont beg for anything from anybody. You can do it too. Make sure to spend some me time. I started with early morning when there would be no-one to bother me & now I take “me time” at my own terms. You CAN do it. Pl stop looking at others. Develop the strength & make your kids strong. Forget everything else. Good luck.