Dear lites, I’m not regular here after a long time I’m posting. Coming to the point how much is too much in married life. We are married for 15 years and had two children 12 year old and 4 year old. I had my own shares of ups and downs and in-laws battle another long story. To cut short I had accepted many things which I cannot change. But deep down there was a resentment in my heart because of disturbances in first four years of married life. It was a lot of mental agony I cannot tell in this thread. so my husband job nature is most of the time he will be in abroad(FYI we r not living in India). So i will be managing home front most of the times. When he is at home he will help me managing kids and elder one studies. And he is a good guy and a great Father. And whatever I ask him he will buy to help with work(eg: home appliances). Now coming to the problem he will be good and lovey dovey until I was happy and stress free. The small difference in change of my voice or my irritation will trigger him. I may be having mood swings or depression I don’t know. If I start crying( sometimes I will cry for some silly reasons according to him). I don’t know for what it will trigger he starts scolding me instead of lending helping hand or consoling me. For past 15 years it has become routine currently he was in another country from two months and it will take another 1month to reach home with quarantine rules and all I’m managing in the country I’m living. I’m not working. For past 15days the pandemic situation in our country becoming alarming so government announced mini lockdown so home based learning starting for my kids. They are going to school. So I got tensed because 24/7 I need to manage them alone and I have my own reasons to freak out. so I don’t know while talking with my dh I started crying he asked me what happened so I told my concerns and nightmares regarding kids. He said don’t worry everything will be ok and anyways I’m coming in a month after coming I will take care. I was sobbing listening to him and said you are always like this you never thought about this in pandemic situation you went abroad now I’m facing consequences. He immediately got triggered and started shouting you always like this crying for silly reasons and cut the call. I can never voice out anything I know the result will be this but I was not able to control. He never consoles me for most of the time just brush it off saying you always a cry baby how much I do you will never get satisfied. He was a better companion for me but there was no emotional companion for me. Is it too much to ask or expect some emotional bonding. How much is too much in a relationship. sorry for long rant at least I’m free now after vent. Can get any suggestion on how not look for an emotional companion in him.