In past years I had difficulty telling who is my friend, who is my foe. If I thought someone was a foe (even though they were actually friend) I would be disrespectful. If I thought someone was friend (even though they were foe) Inwoukd get trampled on and I would only realize when it is too late. As a band aid approach, if I think someone is foe, I keep my distance, but still act polite (why burn bridges) Most of my adult life was destroyed by this. I don’t know if it can ever be salvaged. This is deep sadness that gets at the root of human anger, aggression, defensiveness. Here is how I am trying to fix my life - Study for cert to get higher post and meet a like-minded professional at work. Believe it or not, people ,eat snd marry from work, it happens naturally - Meditate at least once a day (24 minutes at a time is my sweet spot for now) - Write in both poetry on IL I feel sad and troubled looking back at my life. Next new moon is more than a week away (Feb 1, 2022) yet I am feeling this turbulence. Please give solutions.