Despicable Me - Cultivating Self-compassion

I can see a shift in my thought process. I am looking to do something for myself even if I think of it as a chore some days.
Sometimes it feels like a betrayal and the need for self flagellation returns but I am not dwelling on it.

 

Tuesday: Yoga
Wed: Gardening

Read this today:

"Chronic remorse, as all the moralists are agreed, is a most undesirable sentiment. If you have behaved badly, repent, make what amends you can and address yourself to the task of behaving better next time. On no account brood over your wrongdoing. Rolling in the muck is not the best way of getting clean."
- Aldous Huxley

 

https://fashionista.com/2015/05/korean-skincare-depression

This article resonates with me so well. My skin care routine is neither Korean nor elaborate but after years of not even moisturizing, it is a definite step up.

"Putting things on my face doesn’t just soothe and smooth my skin but my thoughts as well, letting me feel myself in myself in a pleasant, positive way"

It is the same with me. A mindful routine to start and end the day. Any skin care benefits are happy side effects.

Today is going to be a sheet mask day.

 

Friday, Sat, Sun, Mon - vacation

 

Tuesday - Yoga class
Today - Yoga (at home)

 

30 days done. I think I am in a better shape than when I started. My face is a little brighter, home is cleaner, garden tended, back pain is tolerable and the guilt is not as strong.
The grief has doubled, which is appropriate and time will have to take care of it.

I will continue to make an effort to have some time for myself each day. More than doing things for myself and the me time, being gentle with myself when the inner critic goes overboard.

Thanks to all for your support.

 

Thanks for this! I concentrated on breath in the yin yoga class today. Added in body scan and basic visualization. I was afraid of meditating and was not going to attempt it any time soon but I think I can try in the near future.

 

Thank you! I was thinking of learning Yoga poses properly. Specifically ones that help with back pain. Maybe pick one pose per week and concentrate on that. I will post in another thread.