I am mom of two beautiful kids who make me complete with out husband, we are are not formally separated. My husband is abusive person who does not connect with me emotionally , it all about money and each time he pulls me, i feel i am being raped. 14 years of life is all wasted other than having lovely kids. I am considering separation, my husband visit India once in a year and never bothered to take us with him. I need to be excellent maid cum wife for him. I am enough with this person, he is not ready to give divorce. from last 14 years i am in touch with my close friend who proposed me for marriage before i could get married to my husband, due to parental pressure we had to get married to different person and moved on( He liked me and we ever never into any relationship), all this year he being married use to support me and help me emotionally with my troubled marriage. He too got separated from his wife and he is stays in USA and even now he is asking if he can ask my parents for marriage. I am scared , i have two kids and i cannot accept new relationship though i respect him a lot and i feel incomplete without him. These days i started thinking about him a lot, even though we talk everyday we have never crossed out limit than talking about various issue( work or may be our kids well-being, yes sometimes he tries to explain to me that i deserve a better life , he still cannot thing of any one else other than me for rest of his life). I am scared to think if i deserve one more life. he will keep me happy and we have know each other more than 15 years. He promised to be good father to my kids and he is too has one girl child, willing to wait for my divorce. Even after getting married many time he asked why my parents rejected him and me too. there was silly misunderstanding from both the parents. I feel being mother of 2 kids is all stopping me for second chance in life. My husband wants me to return all the money he spend for me and kids in last 14 years in return for divorce. What should I do...I am not interested in marriage, however this friend of mine is so accommodating and respects women be it is EX also is making me to fall for him. Me and my husband have never shared even bed other he pulling me for SXXXX. Never we went out of vacation or had friendly talk about anything.