Dear ladies I have put up a post regarding my husbands habits and job. I am staying away from my husband at the moment to try and develop my career. Many are blaming me for staying away from my husband. I coudn't find a job anywhere near my husbands area. While was a housewife my husband never took food to office, he was always travelling and bc. Many of his friends , my friends and relatives used to look down at me for not working. They use to advice me as if I dont want to work and I am lazy. Now that I have started to work all are asking me how cruel I am. My husband's cholesterol levels and sugar levels are going up. My in laws blame me for that. Even if I stay with my husband he wont be able to have food on time nor is he ready to carry food with him. Talking about my job, my job is spoiling my health as its not good place for a lady to work. I took this job as I dint get many options and I was getting depressed staying at home. I thought maybe I can jump to a related industry after working for an year or so. I am in a dilemma. I am not settled career wise. My job is doing me no good career wise. I got cheated by my college and my degree is not enough for me to get some important memberships .These memberships are required for me to continue working. I have to be employed to get the memberships , thats why I am hanging on to this company. My husband's health and my health both are going bad. I might get the memberships but its taking time. I have exams to right and clear. it might take 6 months to 1 year. Even if I clear the exams no 100% surety is there about membership. If I dont get the memberships, my degree will be of no use.. I dony know. why all bad things are happening. I never thought my college was so bad , since many of my college seniors had no issue. The rules have changed now. If I leave the job now , I dont know when I will get another one. What do I do? My husband is happy that hes staying alone . He says he doesnt want to see a depressed me. My husband is not caring or understanding he doesnt even like me talking these things to him. I wish I had some one to talk to .. My parents are not at all worried about my or my husbands deteriorating health. My parents want me to develop my career. I am worried about health. I mentally exhausted that I have to do office work in a different industry , prepare for my exams , staying away from husband and I have no guarantee if I will ever get the membership. Actually there are two memberships so double the tension. We were also thinking of kids but with this health and career, we have to wait.