hi friends, i donot have anyone to share my grief with!please let me vent out that here. i been married for 4 years now and living in US.i have a 2 years old baby.i have anger issues and my husband uses that as a weapon to make me cry every day.Husband is 35years old but with me he behaves like a college guy who does bully his friends or like raging.sorry about my english.he repeats saying things twice or thrice until i reply and that drive me crazy.He really treats me like a servant who takes care of the baby.For eg,today when i was just putting some music on laptop and that time baby put something in his mouth that time DH was like"hey,baby took something from floor and putting in his mouth".i was so worried and asked him what did he put in his mouth did you see?.He was like,"how do i know?you are busy browsing right?"i was angry angry but the sametime felt like crying when i looked at my baby who was innocently smiling and munching chips that was dropped by husband.H doesnt like me even reading or looking somewhere else not even thinking for a second when baby is around.then he would abuses me ,calls me names,tells my baby that" you know your amma is absent minded,she is mad/she is crazy etc".i take care of my baby well.i don't even get time to eat when she is around because H doesnt take care of her.what more,he doesnt even care if i ask him to look after baby for five minutes when i got to restroom in the morning.I am very weak and tired always looking after the son,chores.I am tired of all mental torture i am going through.He has cheated on me once within 1 month after my delivery.I wonder hw many times he might have cheated on me.I have forgiven him that day because my paents were here and i didn't wan them to know about .So i wastrying to hide whole pain inside me .I dont trust or love him anymore.Frankly i dont have anywhere to go . i think he treats like this because she is so damn sure that i wont tell anyone about whatever he has done and doing me.i am helpless,i don't have money,no job or even friends.What i feel is to go to india and join some place where i could work and get accomodation.some place like hostel,asram or somewhere. I am fed up of my relatives(about my family i am posting in "relathioship with parents'' sub forum and H.i dont want to keeo any relationship with anyone.