Friends, In continuation to my previous write up 'Left alone.. Feel my life has come to an end' I wsnt to express how I feel now.. Well I tried to keep myself happy as much as possible but situations are testing me to the extent possible that I am saying 'I can't move further in life.. I'm done. There's no point I see in why I must live or for whom I must live. My life serves no meaning to anyone '.. The reason why am talking like this is my parents themselves are behaving like my enemies.. They r ignoring me and not talking even a single word.. Every day my mom and dad talk to my sister and care for her so much (who lives in abroad). They don't even care to talk to me or bother how I feel.. I feel like am an orphan in my own house.. Everywhere I go am alone.. I have no one to talk to, no one to go out, no one to ask where I went, did I eat or not, how I feel, how was my day.. Nothing..morning I wake up get dressed to ofc, eat and leave, come bk home eat and sleep in my room. By the time I come home my parents would sleep off.. Night I feel so lonely.. I am crying almost everyday.. All I have is just me and all I have is me to help myself.. I'm only 37 .. It's seems to me as if my time in this world is over but thrse are extra grace days that God gave and was not meant to be lived hence am suffering like this.. I did everything for my family..i agreed to all that my parents say so far, even my second marriage whomever they asked me to marry even if it's against my wish and and asked them to save money for my sisters marriage.. They were insisting to get married soon as my sister is in queue.. Even before i got married I used to give all my earnings to them.. During my second marriage my friends told me to do a background check on the groom as lot of ppl are cheating now a days.. I told my parents that I will ask him to do a health check up my parents said no need of all that what if he makes changes and gives us how we will know all that is not necessary.. They didn't even want to ask his divorce papers even after I insisted..later only I came to know after marriage that he got divorced but he had 2 cases dowry case and criminal case that was not settled..my parents were only convincing me in all possible ways not to ask any of these.. I asked the guy myself he said all settled and he's all fine and healthy.. That's when I asked my parents to probe.. But they failed to even do that.. They have put me down so badly when I needed their help and now they left me to suffer and they r happy and cheerful without any kind of worry.. I Don know how they can be so cool.. Its as if all were waiting to pull me down and not take part in my sadness.. They forced me to marry this guy and now they also left me helpless.. I Don get angry with relatives or third person when my parents themselves betrayed me so much.. I Don know where to go and what to do.. I feel am done with life and can't push further.. I Don want to be alone and lonely at al..i want someone to talk to.. I have sexual feelings too...i poured my heart out.. Thanks for reading my story friends ..ny story is one of a kind where I want to stay out of my house and want to go to work during the day bcoz I can't stay at my house seeing my family ignore me or be so happy when am suffering inside so much.. I'm writing this sitting in the metro and Don want to go home and the person came and told that I must not sit here for long.. I have good education and am from a wealthy background and ppl say I look like an actress but what's the use when I have everything but in the end left alone ND depressed with no purpose to live . No meaning to why I exist.. Am happy that I have at least IL to share this..