Hello Everyone I remember sharing my story from 3 months of my marriage till date writing posts about my husbands behavior and asking for advises. Most of you are very kind enough in giving me very valuable suggestions. Now its been 1.5 years of marriage and divorce process has already started. I am working individual who tried to save this marriage until last minute. But god had other plans for me . Any ways now I don't have to face the emotional abuse fro m now on. I am moving out of this house and have to live alone from now on. In my married life also I use to be very happy whenever he goes out on office work as I am always scared that if he is back he will scold me and that leads to a fight again.I always use to stay away from him to avoid the conflict as he gets angry at every thing. Even though I am married I use to do all the house hold work including his work. So managing alone is not a big thing but the divorcee tag is something which I am unable to bear( I am in this marriage hell even though he wanted the divorce on 2nd day for no reason). From the 2nd day of marriage he uses the word divorce every other day and tell me that he will leave at any point if he is not comfortable with me. He says he doesn't tolerate anyone and you will get out the house if he doesn't prefer to be in marriage.Now since he applied for divorce I have no other go. To be honest I don't love him or I don't have piece of mind staying with him. Now I feel its good that he left me because it was a forced marriage for him and he always use to abuse me. My only concern is how do I handle myself in this society and the thought that I won't have children in my life time is a biggest failure which I think. I love kids a lot but now I am not left with a husband neither a kid. If I had a kid out of this marriage I would have lived for that kid happily. even though I live in US what should I say when ppl ask about my husband. Do you think the stigma around divorcee women still exist in society ?? I am 29 year old and I have a good job but I come from orthodox family. I love having a family and raising kids. I am pretty much a loner all through my life and never had many friends before marriage. Even though I don't have much friends I was happy with myself and I love working hard. I am going through very difficult phase from the time he served papers. I thought of sucide as well and then got scared for that. I am crying daily and night. I am blaming my parents for this marriage as it is an arranged marriage. I asked my dad sometime to understand the guy but he didn't. I am completely in a mental space where I need to take out the negativity . apart from counseling what else I can do so that I can lead a happy life ? I am unable to concentrate on anything.My colleagues know my situation and they are managing my work some how but in long run I need to concentrate on my work too. I need to search an other home ,start a new life , buy new furniture. I am happy that I got freedom and there is no one to abuse my looks but what scares me the most is the society. Right now I am trying to cope up and wanted to consult a psychiatrist who can help with me go through this process. Can you guys suggest me some tips in staying happy single without caring much about society? If there are any single people reading my posts can you please share your story or advise me how to overcome the challenges and to be happy. Your advise can be great help to me.