an unworthy friend

Now, this happens to be the beginning of a real confession Strangerrr. Its quite common to commit blunders, in particular, to those whom we take for granted. What sets it right is the realization of one day and making amends. If lucky, such persons may still be around. If luckier, they may not. -rgs

 

From your post I could understand Strangerrr, How much pain you have in your heart for the thing that happened and having only yourself.

Sometimes, Life is hard like this. However guilty we are, we cannot get back the past and some times things cant be changed for good. In such instances i feel, Life teaches us the hard way. We have to accept and it should be glad for the good times you had with your elite-listed friend.

As you said at the end, you have to carry on the drive and I wish you to come out of the regret. Forgiving self is also difficult at times, but we must learn that too to live in peace.

 

Hai strangerr,

You have agreed the fault of yours and realised it more. You can very well bring the enjoyment as usual because once the realisation was filled in your heart your heart will be very ease and will look forward always the enjoyment

 

Hi Strangerrr,

I have a little bit of a different view and please bear with me for this view. A prolonged feeling of guilt is ruining your present life and rightly deserved happiness and joy. As much as you learn to forgive others, you need to learn to forgive yourself as well. In spirituality, fear, anger, guilt, jealousy, hatred, etc. are the feelings that drown and prevent us from achieving self-realization.

I am not suggesting that you should not evaluate your past wrong actions and regret for it. But it should be limited to learning the lesson and move on. The true respect for your friend would be not to repeat that mistake again to another friend. Send your friendship mentally to your friend and make your mind think that your friend had forgiven your forgettable action. Forgiving someone is a great feeling and I am sure your friend would have experienced that wonderful feeling before. Pretend to received the friendship and forgiveness from him in your mind and forgive yourself. That would be a new beginning of a wonderful life forward for both you and your friend.

Viswa