I want to know if I am going crazy or something. I am taking your suggestions very seriously and thanks to you, my life is getting closer to becoming peaceful. On the other hand, i feel I dont want him anymore. You know what i mean? I have become almost prone to detesting him. He was the one I was craving in my life so much, that I was willing to marry him just by meeting him once. so there was a spark and there was love initially. Worse so, mine is a love marriage so falling out of love is so very confusing to me! This feeling became worse after his parents came here. Whenever he asks for sex, I resist. I dont want him close to me, I dont want to sleep with him and i'm quite happy with the distance. I am willing to get out of this marriage to find love. Am i that desperate? or his ignore and neglect has made me this way? You know what i am saying? Now even if he is willing to take that extra step and work towards binding us together, I want out. I dont have a spark anymore with him, I find him so unappealing and I just just detest being in his presence. I prefer going out myself or with my child and having an outing without him. My friends are shocked too! To give you an example of 2 days ago, he came to me for sex. Kept touching me, kissing me and I just slept there and let him do his thing. After he was done, I got back to my emails. I have never felt so cold ever. Its like I just go to him when he wants, lie there just because he asked for it. I refuse many times also but am i getting abnormal? or our marriage has to be tossed ?