My married life is nothing new for IL ladies. I am too scared to divorce and feel it may be worse than living with my DH. Anyway, at least I need to understand if I want to divorce what preparation do I need to make? I have no support from anyone in the US. I have little kids. I am financially independent. 1. I am scared that my DH will do anything possible to hurt me to an extent of involving my kids into this and trying his best telling them that the sole reason for divorce is your mother. 2. what if he abuses me physically? I have zero guts of calling 911. 3. what are the steps? He needs to move-out first (he denied to move-out) , he won't let me move-out. 4. when to contact lawyer? marriage took place in India, will US divorce help me? 5. My kids love their father but my DH is unstable, when he is in a bad mood he screams.yells at them for no reason. they cry and he yells more at them. I am scared for a joint custody because i don't feel comfortable living my kids with him when I am not around. Even today, I hardly leave my kids with him at home when I am not around. When he wants to take them to a playground it is still ok because he doesn't yell/scream/spank the kids in front of others. 6. My fantasy life - a small apartment in a warmer place where there is no stress at home, me and my kids and grandparents who visit us in-between. my husband is nowhere near. We are happy. I am unmarried and taking care of kids and doing my office work. My kids are happy. There is no constant pressure - of what if I do this then is there a big fight/blame/screaming? what if I have guest at home, will I be insulted? what if my parents visit me, will they be indirectly tortured by my DH ? Will my kids be happy without their father? Anyway, if you have time, please help me understand about the divorce in the US.