Fellow ILs, IL has been a tremendous support in my mental health this last year. I appreciate everyone who wrote in whenever they could. Life has been busy with a new born and getting back to work (in person), I was not able to keep up with anything. I am going to just vent it out. I felt I am stressed to maximum until last week. Well, there were more to come. LO came down wth a fever, and H and I held her taking turns while being cranky. an hour later we found our basement flooded from a broken sump pump. Carpet area and walls soaking wet. Dealing with that now. Yelling matches on who takes care of what. Forward to Sunday night, H and I argue on DD's academic/activity performance, this is not a usual argument, it went from heated argument to listing out who attended what. I thought she is doing great, with everything going on. He believes she is not doing good, and will never do good unless we push her hard. I dont want to push her and I will not push her. To me she is good in so many things, have improved quite a bit in what she was lacking. For ex, she was in 60-75 percentile in the reading and writing, where as recently she is been 85-90 percentile. I work with her for most of her school work, other peer issues, and H helps out when he is not busy. Back home, my dad has been ill last year, still ill. Mom is being harder person than usual to work with. Call them every weekend, she won't ask a word, but listen to everything I tell dad and rely that to MIL. MIL was doing good, but a few weeks back started having chemo sessions for her cancer. Hospital and her care is taken care of. But we are dealing with drama from her, BIL and wife - on money. not to us, but between MIL-Son-Son's wife. They call us, one this did, mom did that and expect us to resolve. Work has been great. But i take 1.5 hr of pumping break (2-3 sessions), so i am being paranoid of my manager not being happy with my performance and i feel he is not giving as much as responsibilities as I am capable of. I should be happy to have a lighter plate, but I am not able to. On the personal side, I am struggling with my post partum hair loss, breastfeeding issues and a baby who doesn't sleep through the night yet. I started exercising regularly which used to make me feel great before the baby, instead I am tired all day everyday. I feel i became very old in a year. I was diagnosed for borderline postpartum depression. Thank you for reading.