Now I realize it is best to meet people who are local, ie in school, work, from any outside activities, etc 10 years ago I though my search was over and finally I was entering Heaven Instead I’ve been plunged into Hell. Most people get married in early 30s and have children shortly thereafter. I thought I would fit into that mold. Person married only for GC, was cheating and abusive. I was pressured to get pregnant so he can get green card. There was never love during physical moments, only insults like, “you have no power in your legs”. Later when I told my relatives they took his side and said I should do leg exercises. He never earned a penny for me, never lifters a finger around the gphours and spent whole day watching p0rn, talking to all people back in India, having affair with his married girlfriend, and going on zoosk dating website. Even though that evil loser is gone from my life (after 1 yr waiting to come to US plus 8 months leeching off of me) I still get triggered by the miscarriage I suffered. Baby would have turned 8 this Oct 8, 2922. Only now I see glimmers of hope, but they seem false. And now I am overwhelmed my job, home responsibilities. Due to poor time management skills I end up creating more work for myself and nothing gets done. I feel such sadness that sometime I think it will be a miracle if I see my 50th birthday. Hence I don’t have time to go back to school or get involved in some activities that would allow me to meet local men (to possibly fall in love and marry) It would be a dream to go for PhD in Computer Science. During my 10 years of sadness I got wiser and I think I would be a great candidate. Any ideas? How do I get better at time management to I do things proactively I avoid creating extra work for myself When I am done with one task, I have time but I am exhausted. How do I get energy to do the next task? Therapist can never help. They don’t understand our culture and values for hard work and success. Look at all the Desis in Medicine and Engineering after coming to USA in such a short time, despite being insulted throughout childhood by their American classmates, etc!