I won’t change.I will never change.That is what I was told today when I spoke to her.Who?My mil. what happened? She was lamenting how she is alone in this lockdown with fil and suffering.Did I mention that she has two house help One for cooking for the entire day and also cleaning? I told her everything will be okay soon.She immediately said “Once everything is okay,you guys will plan a vacation somewhere won’t you?. I took a deep breath to collect myself.I know where this is going to go.She has travelled a lot over the world and she has not left a single state in the whole of India.Even when I go to India,she joins us in every trip.somehow even if I go for grocery store..she feels am entertaining myself.Time and again she mentioned that I love to roam around. I was like “no idea.Let this lockdown end”. Mil: “ I am very content and never go out these days (well of course! Who can?) You people are waiting for the vacation don’t you?ha ha. Gosh! She is so bothered about me going for a vacation. mil: you have been to so many places.Lucky you! How many more you think you want to go?what is the point?Set your priorities.Kids are most important. me: HUH???? What is she talking about? Some nonsense.I kept quiet so not to agravate. Mil: we old people are alone here.My son won’t leave me alone in a few years.I believe him.I don’t know anything about you( after 15 years of marriage) but I know him.When am very old,I will come and settle at his house! Me: I do so much and still you talk as though am a third person?Ask yourself honestly what I have not done? Any gift or anything little is done for you is me not your son.Cant you change a bit? mil: I am old.I won’t change.you are younger and you change.I have to go now. Call got cut... For everything else she says I should adjust coz am getting older.Now you are saying am younger and should adjust? I thought..son’s house? His house?what about me then?Am I the servant of this house?Everytime you visit USA for six months,you sit and watch iPad all day and any help you do with cooking after that you mention sarcastically that we made you the cook of the house. So is it okay when you come here and resting like a resort home where I toil for everyone? That makes me a maid.Why you don’t see that?do you know how it feels when I vacuum and you sit cross legged watching iPad and keep coffee glass on the ground for me to pick up When you become old,your son will be in office and any emergency help..it is me who will have to take you,any cooking or Laundary or anything small it is me who has to do it for you. How can you not see that.. Everytime I call this happens.. Today I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs.. I can’t! So sharing what happened today..Honestly not to seek advice but just by journaling this I feel a lot better. Thanks for reading friends..