I have always been very proud about myself for being a career woman. The identity as a UN staff member gives me a special kind of reputation in the society, and I am addicted to this name and fame these days. This is not just a job that pays salary, but my passion and my success. It gives me high, and keeps me going despite of the personal conflicts I have in my life. For the past 15 years of being a career woman, I was very proud that I am the primary bread winner of my family. A decade back, though me and my H have started our lives from the scratch (without inheriting anything from our respective families), we managed to have everything towards a very comfortable life - It's all because of my hard earned money & investment. There are many youngsters in our society, and specially in my extended family wants to become like me. Hearing this from them makes me feel like a role model. I was running in this race for the past many years with so much pride & hope without knowing where I am heading to. My career has made me live like a nomad, travelling all over the world without having a permanent place to live. Whenever I come home, it feels temporary as if I live in a hotel. Nevertheless, I came home due to covid19 pandemic in Mar 2020 and telecommuting to work (WFH) since then. This arrangement comes to an end by end of Sept 2020; thus I am expected to pack my bag & move to Bangladesh soon. This break/stay at home has made me think and realize certain important matters in my life. Specially those matters that I miss in life. We make money & fame to live this life happily & successfully. But what brings us happiness? Is it the money, or the fame or the things that we buy using our money? For the first time in this decade long marriage, I've stayed in my home continuously for 6 months with my family. We have created wonderful memories during this break, and realized the fact that, money can not buy these special moments no matter what. Its wonderful to be able to sleep till 6.00am, and then cook your kid's favorite pan cake as breakfast without any rush in the morning. Its a blessing to be able to carefully pack their lunch boxes for school and kiss them on their forehead every morning to bid goodbye when they depart. Kids love my presence at home when they return from School and it makes our days so special. To sit and share things that happened in their class during evenings with a cup of hot ginger tea is priceless. To teach them, do their home works together, to prepare them for elocution and speech competitions, and to be able to see them on stage while they perform. OMG, I missed all these wonderful moments in my life in the past decade due to my career. I cherish my times with my old mom. We chat about everything under the sun, gossip, argue and fight for stupid things, and the next moment she makes my favorite coffee as if nothing happened. We have our private time every nights from 8-10pm as we watch soaps together, and that's something I am recently addicted to. The bond between a mom and DD is always special. I feel ashamed to have missed on all these though my mom lives with me. Needless to say the rejuvenated love and bond I share with my H in this second innings. It feels like we are in the college once again. We flirt each other, chat endlessly, and share beautiful moments as couples and parents. Since Sri Lanka is luckily least affected by this corona virus, we are free to move on for vacations, family visits, churches etc without having to think or worry about work or leaves. Its amazing!!! I think, I love my home all over again.. There is my touch in the interior, curtains, furniture, cooking, and everywhere now. It feels great to have your own home and to be able to live there. I have my own room, own private swing as my personal space to read & rest, I have my own wardrobe and what not. In fact, the kitchen is all mine, and I have re-arranged everything as per my taste now. All these while, I lived like a guest in my own home. Home gardening is so entertaining, and I had my first harvest of the season already. It feels mesmerizing to sit alone in the garden bench at nights and enjoy the cold breeze that brings the fragrance of jasmines flowers. We as family sit together in our balcony, and have "Nila soru" - roughly translated as "moon rice" on pournamy days. My kids have never experienced such a lovely family time before. What is life without all these happiness during your prime age? You may enjoy everything or even more after properly settled down in life, but how much you are sure that your family will remain the same as it is today to enjoy? Life is uncertain.... We never know what will happen the next moment. Then, why struggle on planning something for the future, by loosing our present?