Some One To Talk To From Indus Ladies - Feeling Low

hello ladies
I am feeling low since a few days.
I am not happy with my husband and my life in general and I wish I had some one to talk to.

 

Thank you

I got engaged at 22 years and most of my friends are getting engaged and married now.
I am not happy with my husband as hes not emotionally available for me.
Hes like this from engagement period (More than a year) but he promised he would change once we get married.
Now its been three years and we have not even got mentally or physically close.
I tried my level best to initiate and plan things together. I am emotionally drained of doing all these things as he is emotionless.

I talked with my parents about how I am unhappy with my husband and my in laws but they ask me to adjust and live. We are staying alone far from both our families. I feel my live is empty.

His proposal came through ä matrimony but we had some acquaintances in common. My parents wanted to get me fixed fast and I chose him over others since we had some acquaintances in common. (By lifes biggest mistake)
When we used to talk he begged me to marry him saying he was the only person in this world who can love me the most.

We have no kids, no common interests, nothing in similar. we are in compatible .
I feel so unhappy when i realise , I have no friend, lover, companion in my husband.
I have friends but they are all busy with their boyfriends or husbands. I initially thought to have a baby to fill the gap, but we dont even have an emotional or physical relationship till now. I don't know how far I can go with this emptiness. I am thinking of suicide most of the days.

 

I meant we had some people we knew in common , not close friends . My husband has no hobbies or interests other than watching movies. He has nothing to discuss with me other than that of his work. Going out according to him is tiring and waste of money. He is ready spend money only on movies. Its not my mood , I am unhappy since the day i got engaged. I waited for so many years thinking he will get attached with time. He is still the same emotionless person.

 

He dint approach me for the first few months of marriage not even cuddling.i felt rejected and my self esteem went so low. After first few months he started pushing me into his physical wants but I told him that I have a mind and to make me happy first. Hes not emotionally available. How can a girl get physical without emotional attachment?