Just wanted to vent my feelings out of my mind..... I had always been very active during my school and college days, taking part in dance, speech, essay writing etc.. Managed to continue that in college as well. Not bad that even while I was working at Chennai, managed to take part in arts festival in my company. Now,Iam just thinking what happenned to all my energy and vigour... Iam just looking like one dull, not so interested in life stuff... Sometimes, I just compare my life to the sambhar that my maid makes at home.. yeah.. She just adds all components in.. ruch dhal, homemade sambhar powder(not the ready made ones), generous amount of veges.. and what not to make it delicious.. inspite of all that..it's tasteless... same thing with my life too.. inspite of having a loving husband, wonderful kids and enough money and a good job.. why Iam having a feeling like this.. probably because, I had always lived for the happiness of others... Even when I was young, I used to be very possessive abt my 2 younger brothers and just take care of them like a mother.. had always been very concerned abt. their growth and happiness.. my dad is a very hard worker but had a very low profile job and to give himhand, my mom also worked as a teacher. I need not mention what sort of treatment we would receive, if our family is a lower middle class.. this was the major inspiration for me to excel in life and bring my family's status upright in the mean society. God was just great to be on my side and I made it.. I had given every happiness that a daugther could give for a parent.. had played a fair role as an elder sister for my 2 brothers.. had intervened them at every stage to see them grow with good traits.Now one is married and another one probably next year. Both of them are blessed with good jobs. Now that I have achieved everything that I wanted to, my mind is very tired and feel like I miss something... When I think about it deeply, I guess I have missed to take care of myself, my feeling , my happiness, my desires... While I was fighting against the life to bring up my family, all my childhood enthusiasm has vanished. I don't seem to talk much and make new friends... Though I know, I have great interest with music, dance, reading,cooking...... but feel little lethargic to pursue them now.. is this common with everyone who's aging? Is there something that I can do about to bring back some cheer for myself.... or should I feel contented with what I have already been blessed with.... I don't seem to develop new friends . When off fromwork, I keep confined with taking care of my children, husband. Have heard from my friends (which I used to have when there were with me in singapore), that people do get together over the weekends as families and they have good time. It's not very common though in Singapore for the expats atleast. Just wanted to reinvent myself and be meaningful to myself before I lose all my energy. Has anyone had a similar kind of feeling who has overcome the same. I'd like to make friends and feel afresh!! Hope Industeam would be a great place for me to relax.