From about age 21 to 34 - for much more than a decade, I had the luxury of putting my work + university studies in the front burner. My days and life revolved around it. Everything else fit in to the breaks - friends, art, travel, family, cooking, home-keeping. But soon after having a baby, everything else fits in to the breaks I take from raising a little one. I have realized the intense dissatisfaction of not being able to be awesome at my job. And I want this year to be about getting back my groove at work. I know it will not be easy because: 1. I feel my intellect dulled and I see myself trying to escape any tough questions I have at work to the the more 'pertinent' decisions of where to take kid out, what to make for the next meal or where to pick it up from, what to garden, etc. 2. I rarely get long hours to get lost in a problem - enough time to make sense of it. I have to context switch out of necessity. 3. And there are always ‘burning fires’ at work - that need to be taken care of immediately so it doesn’t give one time to get back to the fundamentals. how can I catch up with all the things that I missed out on over the last 4 years? Writing this out to give me a sense of direction and formality on how I can approach this. And writing this here, so any of you who would like to share your thoughts, critique or just comment on any of it - will do so. Happy to hear back from you.