I am not the only one with issues , I know many many many of us are going through every day hurdles in life and are still putting up that bright , happy face. I was raped 4yrs ago, I didnt had the courage to tell H as he is abusive both verbally and physically, when I finally told him about the incident he took me to PS and registered complain ,I know nothing would ever happen and there is no progress on the case as the other guy is influential. My H also rapes me he says its legal for H to rape in Indian constitution and sometimes he says is this how he did. He abuses verbally and physically, he has many affairs, Once he got a gal while I was in the house and did X. When I fight back he hits me badly, I feel very alone. Depression has become my bestfriend now, I have no control over my eating , cry thinking of all that happened with me. They say a guy will loose his carrier being at the back , by dedicating his time to the girl but in my case I lost everything. Just living for my kids , I dont feel like staying in this marriage , told several times to him to leave me ,he doesnt leave me. Hats off to us who sail through the hardships for their kids.