Hi all I am totally confused,depressed and dont knoww to where to start from. My marriage is 10months old and is a arranged marriage. My husband liked me and though their dowry range did not match marriage happened.Ofcourse my husband loves me.I dont know how many times i cried alone , to get rid off pain and anger in me i start talking to walls and burners when i am alone . The thing which kills me the most is his mother. she really acts very well in his presence. she talks really very sweetly in his presence. My husband will never beleve any of my words against his mom . Adding to this my MIN and SIN presented me many valuables on my marriage and my closet here is filled with clothes presented by them.so nothing can go against their theory in my house here.In the very begining I and MIN used to share a good raport wich my SIN didnt like and slowly started poisioning my MIN brain. all of my problems started from there.They started commenting my relatives who came to my marriage. Initially i didnt care it but it began to get worsen . My husband always makes fun of my Father and THIS really hurts me like hell. I never said anything against his dad.mmom or anyone from his family. My husband's nature is very strange his temper rises if I say anything ELSE than 'Yes' to what ever he says.I hate that. I had got nothing of my choice. I have to wear everything what my SIN ,MIN brings for me. If I tell him I dont like this and I need my choice of things he really gets mad of me.. he starts saying'OK they are fools for spending their time and money in selecting things for you' kind of .. They dont allow me to wear anything that my Mom gave me. when my mother asks me about that in phone I dont understand what to speak out. She keeps on praising my In-Laws. Whenever i get homesick my husband starts consoling me in his strange way like ' are you the only girl in this world who is away from parents'. I feel like hell when he says that. I am leaving to India in few months and you know what he says, I should stay in my in-laws home and when i feel like seeing my parents i can go stay there for few days and come back again to my in-laws place. I cant stay with my MIN. She always makes me work .. like makes me clean the windows,tables,showcase things ...carpet edges.. all stupid things. She made me do that in my SIN's House too. I am not even given a descent place to sleep in my SIN's Place to sleep . they made me sleep on floor that too to their leg side. I felt very badd. why cant I simply say them I dont want to sleep their on the floor?!! wht cant i tell my MIN that am not interested to clean the carpets in others house?!! My husband is toooo sensitive and once when I argued with him raising my voice he started hurting himself on his throat heavily with his fist...dat might have really killed him if he did it few more times. That was the first and last time i argued. I hat him when he makes fun of my dad, my family. I always keep thinking of running away from married life. I should daily make Calls to my MIN and SIN and talk to them,dats the rule of my husband. These days I am talking to them only when he is by my side. I started looking for some ashramam details where i can go and hide myself from this married world but the thought what my husband might do to himslef really scares me.even if i leave to some Ashramam or whatever i cannot stay without talking to my mother. I feel like hell living my life. I hate asking permissions to my husband and MIN for every small move of my life. I hate staying in my In-Laws home even after going to India for few days.His over sensitive nature is killing me like hell. No fun nothing in life. No fnds.No weekends no movies nothing. I simply stay at home 24/7. what Should I do . How should I fight back when he makes fun of my family. How should I recieve all these things. Sorry, for all those whom I have bored with this post of mine but I couldnot stop myself writing this here as this forum is my only hope to get rid off my problems. Thank you ALL.