As a child, I had been taught to pay my respects in front of pictures of God in the pooja corner of the house. I did that very devoutly, hoping and praying God would be happy 'at' me. When I went to a convent in Std. IV, I turned into a convert and visited the chapel regularly and felt very pious and virtuous. As time passed, I got brain-washed (of course, I did the washing myself by watching my peers) and started questioning the existence of God. Once when I was talking to my mom (I was probably upset about something, I can't remember), she said something about God. So I asked her what proof she had to say God existed. My mom (hats off to that lady for handling me the way she did - she needs to have been awarded a trophy for that) asked me whether any human being could create such perfection like the beauty we see around us - the birds, the bees, the flowers, the trees ..... POINT GRANTED. There had to be some other power who did that. Call it whatever you like - God, Nature, The Higher Power, the Higgs boson ..... The Higgs field, though, from what little I understood in a video is some invisible field that gives mass to whatever particle passes through it. But my question is, can the Higgs particle (created through contact with the Higgs field??? - have I understood that right?), do anything besides growing bigger and creating a huge vacuum which will eventually swallow up the entire universe? If not, does it qualify as God? What is the proof of a God, atheists ask. NO amount of thinking has given me any answer other than my mom's. Is that proof of a God? Maybe not - not in 'scientific' terms. When asked to prove that God does not exist, all one gets is aggression. My question is: The Higgs boson was a theory until proved. The black hole was a theory until proved. However, it took decades to prove it. Physicists waited and researched patiently to find the proof to their theory - or shall we call it a 'belief'? Because until proved, everything is a belief. How long would they have waited to declare that belief to be a blind faith if it had not been proved? Similarly, I refuse to give up on a God simply because there is no 'scientific' proof. Maybe we might find it some day? Am I a believer? I would say, I am strictly speaking an agnostic - not atheist - because we do not have that proof. However, I lean more towards believing, based on circumstantial evidence I see around me. I'd like to keep an open mind until the day it is proved there is no God. But then keeping an open mind means also to accept 'To each one his own (belief)'. The proof of the 'hole' has given me hope that someday the 'Whole' will also be proved.