After 3 years of marriage I feel like we are roommates. He pays the bills and gives affection when he feels like it and expects that I should have no complaints... even if he is having a bad attitude he says he was joking I shouldn't be so negative by saying I don't like it. I am tired of crying and complaining. Up until about 2 weeks ago I adored him and wanted to be close to him whenever possible even when he had upset me. But after so many times he blew me off, ignored me, disrespected me, rejected me...in conversations, in my actions, in bed... I felt something shift. I don't feel warmth anymore when I look toward him... I feel repulsed. I don't want to sit beside him, I don't want to snuggle up to him at bed time, I don't even feel like hugging him (I don't refuse to If he initiates, but this is strange for me bc I love to hug) I try to avoid him when we are both at home. Used to be I couldn't stay mad at him but this time it's like my feelings for him just turned off. I don't know what to do. He is starting to notice and saying things like come closer, why are you so far away, hey let's not fight anymore I will listen more and help you more. But when he speaks these things I hear it, but I feel nothing. I tell myself to try to be positive that he is trying and he is helping a tiny bit more and showing a tiny bit more interest in me. ... But it's almost to little to late and I don't want him to tell me he will try harder, I don't want him to hug and kiss me more. I just want him to be as nice to me as I am to him. I just feel that I want to be away from him... I don't want divorce so I just am looking outside of marriage for friendship and positivity because this lack of connection is making me feel quite lonely and isolated. When I am at work I am happy, when I am with family I am happy, when I am alone I am happy, when I am with husband I am not happy. I don't know what to do.