Im a software engineer earning 60k per month and married, it was love marriage. Just im going to tell my story in short.Got married 5 years back soon we came to know that love and lovable person is not enough to live our life happily. Waiting for past 5 years till no children. 2 Years back we went to US for my husband company projects with lots of desire and we planned already how to live there and how to spend money..etc., their I became pregnant.but unfortunately I missed that in my 11[SUP]th[/SUP] week.Soon my husband lost the job there. We had to come back to India and we waited for 1 year to get job for my husband.But no luck.So I joined in one company. It’s already 2 years that my husband didn’t get job till now. My parents and In-Laws asking us about the children, they saw all kind of astrologer and horoscope and remedies and result was Big Zero. In our side, we consulted with different gyno, took lot of medicines and gone under diagnostics and the result was another Big zero. Yes, I can go for IVF, that one wil be last option for me. But In-Laws are not preferring this method (actually previous consultation with doctors were taken without their knowledge). Even If I have to go for IVF, I have to be in full rest that I can’t do that now because im only the earning person right now in my family. Right now im in very frustrated, depressed state. I know if I live this miserable life soon I will become zero. I came to this thought few weeks back but I don’t know it is right or wrong. ‘Searching for happy life is actually a waste of time and day by day it eats me. Instead of that im going to enjoy my regular day as it is. Here after I won’t beg for, wish for children or wealthy life.Im going to worth and thank the thing ,what I have in my hand.Good job, good friends and the best is my husband. That’s enough for me.Just I want to the live as it goes.No future plan,no thinking(positive or negative),no wishes.Im going to give to others what I have with me.’ But my husband tells me that ‘actually my thought is full of negative approach.Keep positive.Always think we WILL live life happily’. How can I? Already we are in thirty plus…I don’t know when that ‘WILL’ will come to present tense. I tried different way to reduce my stress like yoga, meditation but no use. I know that my normal wish I mean every woman in this world have the same wish ,is not working for me. So I don’t want to bury myself in that unfulfilled wish. I want me back I want myself back ‘ a girl who was very friendly ,making friends very soon, remove the mountain size obstacles with a smile, not expect anything from others’. God fails me, nature fails me, my conscience fails me … I know, no other person in this world help me except me. I have to come over my problem. My only solution is ‘DON’T EXPECT’. Am I wrong? I don’t have anybody to share my feelings, because actually they couldn’t understand my feelings.Then I want to post this in this IL forum.So can my friends will help or advise me.