My dear Dad where ae you

Ihope all the Il ladies would not mind me penning a few words about my father.I would be grateful to have your patient reading and feedback on this.
My father passed away this year in February at the age of 80.People might say what is there to mourn about ,he is lived a full life.But a father is a father...
My father was from an ordinary family ,he strived hard and keep it to very good postion.He married my mother as my grandfather said.She is a very very innocent lady always harrassed by her own brothers and father.She was from very rich family.My father bore all the humiltions imposed by his brothers in law.In fact later on in family when they became paupers,helped them all.He helped all his 6 brothers as well.He always used to tell us we cannot justify ourselves if we behave like them.He fulfilled the duty of son till the end.He even performed his mother's ceremony 20 days before he died.He took care of my mother when she was in coma for 45 days and brought her back to life.None of her relatives turned up.
Being the youngest I was very close to him.As my mother hardly knew anything,he taught us what a mother should teach the daughters.Anything we want he was there was for us.Whenever he used to return from his trips ,his box used to be full of nice dresses for each one of us.He never missed any ocassion.Even his friends and relatives got it to be remembered.He was one who used to stories from Ramayana and Mahabarata to us everyday evening.
Every week there was a call to all the people he knew.Any occasion or function ,he would go if he is able to,inspite of us grumbling.Any one had a grandchild immediately he would send a wooden table ware bearing"Happiness is being a grandparent'.He found time to send kumkum prasadam for kumadam prathinai club for many years .
He never watched any programme which my mother disliked.As she does not follow English well he used to watch whatever she did.He even used make his own coffee maker lest he should awake her at 3 a..m.
He was very delighted with his granchildren.My daughter used to spend 3 hrs every Sunday to have literary discussions with him.He used wait for us to come.I vividly remember that he used to give us money to spend on books every time we came to chennai from Coimbatore.He loved crossword .
He was faithfully to the Group he was with and worked till the day before he died.
He wanted all of us study and he said that age is no bar for studying.He completed his MBA few days before my sister got married.
He used to contribute regularly for charities some of which we came to know only after his death.
when his younger brothers died,he kept asking why do we come in order and go in another.
He was very very thrilled when I joined IL.In fact he learnt to operate the comp so that he can be in touch with his nephews ,nieces and friends who were abroad.
I could not attend his funeral as I was in Abu dhabi and my husband was not allowed to travel.His wish was to cremate with in 3 hours after his death.He died on Thai poosam .No sickness,no hospitilisation,Just instant death.
He was very very postive man and there was never negative word from his mouth.
I long to hear his voice,touch him.but where are u father?........As he used to say shadow of death passes away like cloud..........but not for us...........Oh Father I really miss you.................He never liked us to cry but what can I do?
Thank you IL for allowing to pen my thoughts...........................

 

I apologize. .There are couple of dramatical mistakes in my post.I felt like penning my thoughts as felt IL was the perfect platform.

 

Thank you friends for all those touching letters.I am really overwhelmed to have such understanding friends.I thank you all IL friends for your response.I feel much lighter now.This site is indeed a wonderful platform to vent out one's feelings.THANK YOU ALL........................