Did you guys know how hard it is to let things go, just getting up - dusing your hands off to never look back on the thing that you just decided to leave behind? I didn't. I am now consciously working towards pacifying myself on letting things go and to stop it from affecting my personal life. Oh boy! i could have done with a smaller mountain to climb. Just yesterday i had a very stressful day - which included travelling to two different far off places in the hot sun, then only to reach there and realise that people there have been playing around with my family and giving us a run around for own things. Undermining my authority on things just because sometime in the past, i undermined them (in their version). Putting me down in front of my husband and my sister in a sly manner (not that my DH and sis care about their comments). Expecting me to bow down and apologise (which i didnt do) and finally they feeling happy when they get the oppurtunity to remind me that "when the guy of the family is talking, do not interrupt". I so much want to pen down the issue that we have been facing for the past three months but i honestly don't know where to start and how to end. But i feel very angry when i think of the nonsense that they spoke to me. It would have taken less than a second to talk back to them yesterday. My husband could have spoken back but he didn't, my sister have replied back, but she didn't, i could have given back but i didn't only beacause of the situation we are in right now. It would hardly take a minute for me to ring up these so called "relatives" even now and give them a few choice words and be done. But that one thing will break all the things that my husband has been working for tirelessly all these days. It will put us a million steps behind the plan that we are currently following. BUT it will pacify my hurt self-respect and restore my dignity and yeah...boost my ego a little. My husband would not have a single problem if i did that. But honestly after going through all that we went through, i don't want to be an extra burden on him by messing things up for him. So i am trying my level best to let things go. My mantra since morning has been...."its ok!", "Its not the end of the world", "Its fine to let people think what they think since its not the truth", " i have no control over external factors", "dont take things to heart", let it go...let it go....let it go.... Its hard. its tough and it hurts me like hell to let it go. But i am trying. Honestly this post is 1 of the ways of me trying to cope with this. I would gladly welcome other ways of dealing with letting things go!