To start with, this was one of my childhood fantasies - to own a kaleidoscope and see it during the night, pointing it towards a glowing bulb. This raised a big desire in me and I longed for one. At that point of time, it costed about Rs. 10-/- and that was a big amount [No, I am not that old, I remind you!]. Besides, the idea of making one all by ourselves caught up like wild fire and we went and searched for broken glass bangle pieces and anything that was colorful. As usual, our attempts stopped soon as we fancied something else, but it was so good while it lasted. I got a kaleidoscope too though I don't remember when. And I was glued to it from the first minute, seeing various amazing patterns, some of which I could still recollect. The tube was made of long and thick paper sheets, with a tapering end. To my dismay, the papers started peeling off, later on. But what I saw, made a difference to me. I used to cover the other side [farther from the eye] with a black sheet, partially first and fully later on and experimented a lot. The quick rearrangement of the colored glass pieces in myriad patterns intoxicated me to an extent that I soon lost trace of everything, including myself. Unable to differentiate whether a particular pattern was already seen or not, I just remained there. The second and third day, I got that sorted out, and could very well count the finite number of patterns that formed within, though hoping to be proved wrong. But the very idea of such a vast pattern collection was still leaving me engrossed. Now when I look back [a classic trait of those that are getting old, you may say!], I see an amazing similarity. My life too, had just been a collection of events through which I could spot patterns that emerged. I smiled. Viewing the past is always a good exercise provided, you do that without any specific foregone conclusion. Sometimes the best way to come out of a mental block is to look at it from a distance, like an observer. I know its difficult, but that worked for me earlier. What is life if we are not going to laugh at our own follies later? What I could get from this exercise, was something that I didn't anticipate. I could clearly see what I missed earlier, even after running those occasions earlier. I could then see beyond what I saw and grasped earlier and understood the reasons for my own actions better. It was like removing the black sheet from the other end of the kaleidoscope. I wanted to experiment more and tried looking for some patterns for my oncoming events. Sounds crazy, right? But what I wanted to do is to run all options for my response to an oncoming event about which I had a good idea. I know that this is dangerous, as it pushes you to have a perception before getting in to it and clearly saw that this comes handy in tackling problems at work. But another part of me, clearly said that this won't really work on a personal scale, because of my own emotional involvement in it, where my response would then be conditional, not spontaneous and from the heart, which is how it should be. Again I got lost in the patterns that were rushing inside, teasing, evolving, embracing and finally leaving like night dew when sun comes. Yes, here and there I could see gray spots or streaks, but I felt that I was always helped when I was in dire straits, for which I am grateful to everyone and that special one above. As I delved in to this more and more, I realized that I was looking for trees, but not getting the forest. One look above on a clear night sky filled me to such a brimming extent that the tears of joy fell down. That magical carpet had that golden orb and countless bright many colored eyes twitched and turned a bit every now and then, weaving numerous patterns on the fly! I went back rejuvenated, grateful and smiling - Yes, like one of those everlasting patterns I saw!