Hi, I am sorry to bother you people again. I just wanted to write how I am feeling now thts it. As I posted in my previous posts abt my relationship with husband just a quick recall. In simple words he only doesn't know tht wife also got feelings for him I am another piece in the house like furniture thts it. I need not to know anything what is happening in house not even about our son. cook,clean and a nanny for our son in his eyes. Thts it. So I also adjusted to that in Order to avoid fights which are showing effect on our son. But don't know why now a days I am feeling very low. I work as a preschool assistant from 2-4 years physically exhausted by the time I reach home. After coming home also I will make son to do homework cook and everything. But why he always think I am not good for anything. Why he always pointing to simple mistakes and spoils the atmosphere. I know I am not supposed to put School bag on bed but it will only a minute to put on table for he don't need to scold me. Why he wants me to work like a machine. Why he always compares me with others.why don't he feel that I am a human. When he doesn't want to talk to me why should he take me to holidays and hurts me there with his behavior and behaves like a stranger. why I should like the things he like. Why I cook or eat the food he likes. Why I should I make his likes are my likes. Why should always me to adjust. Why always I should compromise so tht our marriage won't break. Why all my decisions are made out of compulsion not my choice. Too much of why na wht to do.I just said everyone will sit and eat together so let's be family time so I don't put tv even for my son and he Will come and immediately switch on t.v and dances he he don't find the remote then why's the point of eating together. MmmmmmmmWe don't talk to each other nothing physical or emotional and endless lists. I wonder sometimes whether he is husband or care taker. The things which he does are small but killing me from inside. Even to stranger we say happy birthday I am not even eligible for tht ? Funny expecting too much from him na. What to do living with a stone I also become a stone but it is not my fault to born as a human na.mmmmmm. sorry.