Thankyou Sunetha. You will be in my prayers too. Trust and Surrender. let your heart soften. all this may sound like voodoo, but I don't know of any other way to explain how my attitude/ego/heart (call it what you want) changed. If you ask me to explain in one word - I would say - SURRENDER. I surrendered to His will and got on with my life. I do have my moments where I am afraid. I am paranoid before every appointment. I am not perfect. Wishing you the very Best!