Il Confessions And Please Please Pray For Successful Tavr

Right now the only help is me, myself, and I

rest of the family is estranged


And the Nurse Practitioner who is assisting the Dr barely has any patience for my Dad and I

few weeks ago:
When we had trouble scheduling date she got impatient with me and said it is not productive to call every other day —- ppl have to go on vacation (it turns out she was scheduling her vacation)


Few minutes ago:
My Dad has super sensitive skin (simple blood tests require baby butterfly needle size 23 and depending on person who administers the shot, infection and scar lasts for weeks.

I stressed this when Dad got CT scan tests over and over (the technicians tried their best.)

Now Dad has Angiogram next week and she said, “if you Dad has skin sensitive as he claims he does” the test will be real uncomfortable

To me it sounds like she thinks Dad is imagining his problems, what does”claims” mean, that is more of a legal term!

When I told my Dad this phone conversation he said no no, please emphasize it has been proven over and over again the skin is very sensitive. Once when he has to go for blood test and proper needle wasn’t there, he had to return home and come back later ( blood test center took him without appointment)




There is no other place he can go for TAVR. He would have refused except there is Dr at hospital who did excellent job with Angiogram almost 30 years ago. Now this Dr is Head of Dept and still does caese (first in morning, meetings afterwards)


At this point my Dad feels he won’t survive these operations (hense he is pushing for my security if something goes wrong) On top of that i get these silly comments from a Nurse Practitioner ( or maybe people talk down to me because I sound dumb and my Dad will be alright, then it’s all good)

 

These things are so hard to get over. You remember all of your life.

I had miscarriage and still think of my child. Recently I imagined my child in Heaven, ie maybe she will be there to greet my Dad (so many times my Dad says he wants to go, he wants to go)

 

Thank you so much

I hope your baby is doing much better. That evil eye is horrible (my Dad says it gave him so many health problems at once, and I believe Imwas attacked by I in Nov … but I got recovered)

I pray your baby is well.

 

On,y now I am starting to imagine a life last this sadness … but I’m still anxious about the upcoming heart procedure