Thanks @MalStrom ! Yes, i have now let it go. In my mind, i no longer have a mom i idealised and wanted and wished would stay with me. Its ok. Life doesnt give you everything the way you want it right. Hey, the one good thing is this makes me think about the kind of parent i want to be to my kids. Yes exactly!. I dont want to ask her anymore for anything and i dont too. She now cooks food coz she thinks that is 'her' work. So i have just let her do what she wants. She cooks, i eat, if i feel hungry inbetween, i eat what i want by making it myself. God @MalStrom , please dont judge me on this. For once, i really really want her to go and stay with my grandparents or my sister or my uncles. I know i might be wrong to wish this but i really need my space now. i badly need it. All the taunting, all the bad faces, all the long faces she makes is really a pain to bear. For once, i want to laugh out loud, i want to eat what i want by cooking it myself or ordering it form outside, i want to dance around happily with my kids and husband. I really cant do anything now. I just want her to go for another reason too. Since i was broughtup by my grandparents, i really wanted my grandmom beside me this time. I felt like lying down on her lap and i teared up the last time i spoke to her. I was discussing with my husband about either going to meet her or bringing her here to stay with me. and guess what, my mom put her foot down saying, she cant put up with her mom and her tantrums. Yesterday, she went crying to my husband asking him to book a ticket for her so she can stay with her mom. I am so tired of this dual faced, crying, sorry portrait she shows everyone. I mean everyone thinks she is an angel and doesnt know how to talk. But she shows her most devilish side to me and my elder son. And the hard part is just when they come to me and praise her for her patience and endurance and all that, I just smile and keep quite. As i said, i really want her to go and stay with i dont know whoever she wants to stay and let me have a few days for myself. I intend to now. I never hired a cook or a maid only because she really scared them away. I have been through 10 maids so far. And now no maids are willing to come to work for us coz of her. She hates the way they wash, the way they smell, the way they dont maintain themselves or she just hates them for the way they are. Yes, i have made my husband look for a good maid in our apartment so we can appoint one this coming month onwards. and yes, payment is not really a problem for me now. I am ok paying even 5K if it will get them to stay with us and help me out. Yes, this has made me fight with her so badly that i believe she is subconsciously letting it out on me for all the bitterness she has for talking what i spoke to her. I had forbidden her to give instructions ot my elder son for the reason that she is so hateful when she gives her instructions. that is another thorn on my side for her but as i said, when it is my son or her, i chose my son. And now i choose me.