Now, this might be an odd question, but I'm not Indian, so I need extra help. I feel a lot of respect (and longing) towards Hinduism but I haven't grown with it. I always wonder where I would turn in face of a really difficult situation, and I'm sure that the religious practice that would bring me solace would be that of my own childhood. I want my (upcoming) children to have that. To have a safe tradition to turn to. I also feel that Hinduism is wide enough, and on that regard, simpler than my own religion, so I like it. But from what I've seen in my family, religion seems to be passed a lot more from the mother than the father. And I can cook Indian food and wear saris and light the lamp once and again but that's not it. They can have coloring books about the Ramayana and listen to devotional music a lot, but I feel that there's something really big that is missing. I feel it even in my everyday life, before kids. I can't pass onto them something that I do not have. I don't feel comfortable asking my in-laws for guidance because I don't want to seem like some kind of Hindu wannabe. But my husband doesn't know what I'm missing either. Right now all I do is try to find out when there's an important date and cook an extra-nice Indian meal for it. Sometimes my husband lets me know that his family doesn't celebrate that particular thing, or if they do, he doesn't know how, except for the food, so I just make food. When my MIL visited us, I sat next to her while she did pujas and watched, but that's all. They did a lot more stuff once I left (I had to travel). Sometimes I wish I had a cookbook of sorts to learn how to go through my everyday life like I learned to make Indian food.