Hi all, I have read so may posts about problems faced in marraige/relationships in this forum. Probably that only prompted me to post my problem too and I sincerely hope someone can guide me right. Here is my story. I come from orthodx family and eldest child of my parents. I got married an year ago. My hubby's place is fine. I dont have any issues with my FIL, MIL or SIL. They are all very very nice to me and treat me as their own daughter. Sometimes I feel lucky having been married to such a good family which is conservative n orthodox as my own family and have lot of values and affection for daughter in law. My husband is nice too. He is a reserved but straight forward.So you guys must be wondering what could go wrong? Yes..its my relationship with my hubby. Post marraige we came here to US as my hubby was doing his phd here and was about to wind up in few months time. It was a very hard for us then as we literally had to live on his meagre stipend given to students. As soon as I landed in US my hubby's mood took a full 360 degree turn as he changed from a normal and smiling person to rude and insensitive person. This lasted for few days and those days I had no love life and was scared of him all the time. After he was back to his normal self and that was much easier for me too. Then I asked him why he was doing so he said he was feeling home sick and thats why he acted so strange and even apologised to me. He then went on to complete his thesis and got his doctorate few months and all good things like getting a well paid job, moving to sunnyvale and all that happened to us. We dont have any financial worries any more. Here is my actual prob. I have been married for more than a year now but I'm still a virgin. It never happened during our first night. After coming to US I already briefed u guys about abt what happened. But we gradually stared with kissing and hugging and cuddling. Few months after marraige I found out that my hubby was into ****. First two times when he was caught he denied it..but the third time he accepted it and apologized to me and promised that never ever he would watch **** again. I believed him. Actually I wanted to tell u guys this. I am okay if he watched **** as any bachelor woiuld do it. I can forgive him for that. But what frightens me is he was watching gay pron. So I'm not sure what I should conclude. whether he is gay or not am not sure. I read in internet a lot about gays and their behaviour. He does not act like any of them but he never had sex with me. when I asked he said he said he does not watch gay ****, only regular ****. But When I coonfront that fact saying you have gay **** videos stored everywhere he says all kinds of **** videos are catered by the same site and only after downloading one will know what kind of **** it is. Althought I trust him now there is always this worry at the back of my mind. When asked why he never had sex with me he stated that he is in his last leg of this phd and not in any state of mind to have sex. I actaully had to agree with him coz he used to work long hours and was very busy in his lab too. He used to come only late. And another reason he gave me was financial insecurity. We both dont have jobs and living on stipend. So getting pregnant is an insane thing to do as well. I 100% accept what he say too. Now we are settled and he got his first month salary and we dont see any issues. He did not have sex yet but started imitating which I think u guys call it as foreplay. What concerns me is that I have read in so many articles/blogs that men cannot go on without sex for a long time (in my case almost an year). Even if they are not planning for kids they would use condoms to satisfy the desire. Is my husband's behavious unusual? But just wanted to tell u guys that he is a person with lot of will power and self control. I just need to know if whatever has happened is fine and I dont have anything to worry about? Just let me know. Thanks in advance. Sorry for the long post. But I wanted to give u guys complete pic so that U guys can analyse the situation pretty well and reply back.