Hello friends, This time my post is different. I am struggling with words or how to describe, lets see if I can put it what I am feeling: Many in my organization know I am an overachiever, and have a good reputation. Personally I think, I am over proud of myself, I over imagine the power I have. I over think about myself thinking I am in a big position but I dont think I am in that big position. How to keep myself on the ground? How to tell myself to reduce whatever feelings I have for myself? Oh BTW - this is only on the job side. Nothing in my personal life. I dont know where to post this thread, hence posted here.
Hope it is not. Imposter syndrome. Trust me i and dh both are worried like that. Both in IT. with so much automation going we worry about career after another 2 years inspite of being in good work. DH gets more panicked I do not have answer. All i could bring peace to myself is with dedicate time to work on my skills daily problem solving. I tried thinking on ways to passive income , it is a slow process to even think outside the box atleast it is better than negative thinking. and Meditate without my phone. sorry if i did not phrase it well.
Perhaps you need to dial down the intensity with which you judge yourself and how you talk to yourself in your mind. Maybe, a little less despair when others do not appreciate or acknowledge you at work in a timely manner, and a little moderation in joy when you scale new heights at work? Try to google a few articles that analyze this Aldous Huxley quote from "Island": “It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days… Lightly, lightly – it’s the best advice ever given me…So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly my darling…”