Hi everyone, I took a little break from IL just for a few days and back with a news. I am 11 weeks pregnant now and last week I had NIPT and found out I am having a girl. I have an 8 year old sweet daughter. So I wanted to have a boy, my reasons were (probably foolish): - My side of family has more females, looking at all my cousins, almost all of them except for my sister's baby, all are girls. So for a change, I wanted a boy. - Probably some of my bad childhood experiences as a girl might have influenced this as well. - I wanted to have an experience of raising a boy too. Moreover, the perfect family in mind was parents with a baby boy and a baby girl. - Apart from this, as soon as I had a pregnancy test I had a feeling this is a boy because this pregnancy is very different from first one. - since now we are a family of 4, if I have a boy there will be 2 males and 2 females (I am slightly OCD) -During my first pregnancy my MIL wanted a boy and she told me that, with all my heart I wished for a girl and it happened. So this time when I was thinking it is going to be boy, I thought it would just happen, just like that. When you read all these I am turning out to be terrible person, aren't I? - Above all, before we knew the gender my DH was talking to me as if it is a girl and he found a name already which I didn't like and it irritated me, and I wanted him to be wrong, so i wanted a boy. It doesn't matter what the reasons were, even if there were no reasons, in my mind I wanted a boy. Now that I know it is a girl, he doesnt have to deal with the disappointment which makes me angry and sad a little bit more, half of it is probably the hormones too. i have read the thread same title here with fellow ILites suggestions and it doesnt seem to help me very much. I know I will be fine and I will love the baby no matter what, but it is just I wanted to get over this disappointment. I tried to look at the positive sides - I have a healthy pregnancy so far - I became pregnant without trying too long. When we were trying, all I want was a sibling for DD. There are people in this world who are not as lucky as me and have to try a lot of different treatment trying to get pregnant and are still not blessed, so I should not take all these granted and should not be really complaining like this!! - Boy or girl, it is going to be similar effort to raise them as good individuals - In this world there is enough discrimination against women, so I should not be doing that in my own house! After writing these, I seem to calm down a bit but know it is going to come back to me.how to cope with this? What would you suggest? My hormones seems to be taking over my brain sometimes.