@anika987 , your issues are not going to be solved simply by going to a job because they come from deep within you and you are allowing them to define you as a person. Don't throw away your family's happiness for foolish reasons. Use your resources and advantages wisely to get the help you need to resolve your feelings and become more confident and content. If you are confident then you will do as you please and what is best for you and your family. Anything negative thrown at you will roll like water off a duck's back. If you cannot find happiness with a happy family, secure finances, comfortable lifestyle and still keep yearning for others' approval then nothing is going to help you until you resolve the root cause. Has it occurred to you that other people in your circle may simply be jealous of your comfortable circumstances and are just trying to cut you down? Do you really think a $10/hr job is going to impress them? Many people here are trying to give you positive advice and suggestions. Try some of them. Until then we are simply stuck on a broken record and will be answering the same post a few months from now.