Hi, All Sorry for the long post. Am in the darkest phase of my life. I lost my dad on May 4th. He has passed away right in front of my eyes due to covid. I was helpless. I was there with him for 10 days. He was fine but all of sudden on that day he started sweating and his oxygen level started dropping. Though mom and dad were there I felt like I was shattered. My husband reached the hospital but he hasn't consoled or helped my hand even for seconds. I expected him to be there next to me whereas he was busy on-call informing his relatives. Then the next day some of our relatives came to the hospital and we reached our place. Till then my husband wasn't there next to me. It made me feel so bad. I was so shattered. I was dad's prince. His loss and no support made me realize that am an orphan. My dad loves our house he is the kind of person who hasn't got even a single penny from his parents or my mom's family. He keeps cleaning the house whenever he finds time. But we couldn't bring such a person to his home. After the funeral, we all were there at home for 15 days till we finish the rituals. During those days, some of my dad's friends came to help us get his pensions and inquire about him. Being the elder daughter they all contacted me and shared the procedure to claim all his amount. Even those days my husband didn't even shed tears for dad whereas he was busy buying food and enjoying the snacks which we were keeping for pooja. It agitated me. Within few days my son got a high fever. Without even examining my husband started screaming at me saying it's covid, it all happened coz you people are allowing outsiders. We took our son to the doctor and he took medicine within a day he was fine. whereas my husband and myself got a fever. we gave for test and we were tested positive. So I thought to move to my house coz my mother is a diabetic patient and my son had a small son. We went to our home. Some of my friends called me to enquire about dad's death. My husband said not to talk to anyone as being tested positive. I said people are calling me to enquire about dad's death. He started calling my brother and said your sister doesn't listen to me. you take your sister home I will go to my house. My mom will take care of me. As my brother was in the shop he said he will get back to him. By then he called my mom and said the same thing. My mom said you people are always fighting. Please stay quiet at least this time as we have just lost one person. I was so irritated and told him why are you always talking to my parents. what so ever is the fight it should be between us, not the family members. He didn't listen and he again called my brother and shouted about me. I was so annoyed, but I still cooked and served him and I was doing the household chores. He suddenly said I killed my dad. He is the reason for him to get covid. This word got into my nerves and I said to mind his words. He has got so many things from dad but he didn't have the heart to shed a drop of tear for his death. From then I stopped talking to him. Then after 14 days, I came to dad's house for the 30th pooja. On those 14 days, I didn't miss cooking and giving him all the veg healthy food. Apart from that he ordered outside for non-veg and had that as well. Then he came for the 30th-day pooja. I thought to stay with mom for some more days to settle all the claims. He also said mom that he is going to his native for 15 days. After 15 days, he came back to mom's home and said, " Mom, you want us to be good but never want us to be happy. You are the reason for all the problems. Your daughter's character is not good. She is talking to her college guys. Blablabla..The arguments between them went on and on. My brother said it's not the correct time to talk. whereas my husband said for me this is the time. Maybe for you, it's your dad's death/ But for me, this is the apt time. I told him to stop all this drama and leave the house. So he came to slap me. Mom came in between to stop ..whereas he pushed mom aside. He himself tore his shirt and took the video of my scream. My mom said you are making the decisions when you people are happy then why are you involving me in your fight. Did you people tell me about the abortion which you have done(which happened 3 years back. As my husband lost his job he wanted me to go for an abortion. So I agreed)Mom asked did you people abort coz it was a girl child. In that case why people are having the jewels which I gave for the marriage.Give it back... Immediately my husband said if you want the jewels to keep your daughter too and left my house. He has a debt of 8 L. Apart from that am paying the EMI for furniture we bought and am taking care of my son's education, house be, internet TV bills, maintenance, and other household expenses. Whereas he hasn't given a single penny so far. While coming for dad's 30th-day pooja I got few night dresses for my son and I... He has changed the house lock. We both shared about our past love before marriage. Now his sister has told that to all the family members. Now they are demanding for divorce taking my past affair as the reason. I have taken all the responsibility and I have done beyond the limit how much ever I could do for him. But now he has left me and my son forever. Not even letting me take books and dresses for my son. I feel like dying but then worried about my son's future. He is enjoying life and insulting me with FB and WhatsApp status.My life seems to be dark. He didn't even think of my son. It's been more than a month since he left. He has asked for my jewels to start a business. I said that is the only thing I have for myself and my son.Coz after working for past 10 years I don't have a saving of a single penny. I used to transfer the salary to him. last December we had an argument. We were there in his home where his mom insulted me so many times. He didn't even bother to ask her. She doubted me saying I have stolen her slipper which was later found there.As I spoke he pushed me and stamped me on my private part in the fight. From then I stopped transferring the salary though I pay all the EMI. I love him so much. Though we have a lot of arguments and fights my love for him has never decreased. Help me get out of these. What can I do to get back to my husband?