Dear Agatha, Why do you have to apologize? As Thyagarajan Sir mentioned, it is no trouble. We all know how much effort you have put in for years to take care of your child like mother. When that bond is suddenly cut by the will of God, apparently, your body mind intellect complex is expected to be shaken up. We all know the intention of writing this snippet and please consider that all of us as your friends who have willingly agreed to read your snippet and give you consoling words.