Fell In Luv With Husband Once Again

arthimahalakshm · Jun 10, 2020

It was a medical emergency...found a lump under my collar bone 2 days ago...
Visited our resident doctor and received pass to travel the other side of our township gate to reach the specialist in the city..
Yesterday visited the DR and did sonography and...Now diagnosed only fibroids. Not cancer cells.
Now my post is not about my medical condition...
So reverting back to the previous night when i received the pass and advice from our resident doctor. my elder daughter is waiting for her appointment order from one MNC and my younger one is yet to see the outside world out of her school..
I am in my late 40s and i am damn sure that i am the axle of my small family where husband earns and i drive him and our kids to be successful..
In short i am a home maker who looks after the needs of the family other than earning..
So my thought on that night was entirely on my kids ..Started my preaching on how to be strong in my absence whom to trust and what to do...and all..
My husband was a witness of my preaching...and said nothing...
He simply finished his supper and was very quiet and informed me that the next day we were visiting our specialist...
There after he went silent mode...didn't even...keep him busy in his..WApp groups...and tried to sleep….and I lost my sleep in agony…so yesterday we started our journey as planned …met the doctor and finished the procedure ..Bought the prescribed medicine and started our journey back home…
All of a sudden my husband stopped the car… and took the side of 6 lanes road…and just hugged me and uttered only one sentence.. that he was not ready to loose me in the middle of the together journey of us…
First time I felt ashamed and thinking how silly I was feeling only about the future of my kids not about my husband who hadhas solely me in his life..(he lost his parents some 20 years ago itself…so only me and our daughters in his life)…
Husbands never express their feelings orally. But their world would shatter…if they come to know about their wives'…health conditions…ours is entirely an arranged marriage and we never exchanged the slogan I luv you ..only doings for each other.. say a lot
Now ..dragging my heart and soul to live long not only for my kids but for my husband’s sake too…

joylokhi · Jun 10, 2020

So nice to read first of all , that there is no serious issue with your health. Yes , men rarely express everything openly. Wish you and your family many many years of togetherness and happiness/

jayasala42 · Jun 10, 2020

Normally only women have unwieldy torturous imaginations.men do not even think of getting separated and do not have wild imaginations. Most of them brought up under middle class set up do face situations without expressing explicit anxiety and give good company to children,in case of dire necessity.
We have many such instances in our families.
Nice snippet.

jayasala 42